Wow its May already. This past month has gone by so quickly. So has like the entire year.
Sorry about this being a few days later than usual. Its been on my to do list since the first of the month, but I've been so busy that I keep just putting it off.
So what have I been so busy on that it caused the entire month to pass in the blink of an eye?
Mostly therapy, truthfully. I'm spending probably 4 hours a day on therapy-related activities, which include exposure therapy and various mindfulness activities. Given that I don't do all of it at once, it usually takes most of the day to get all of it done.
I have also been doing a variety of other things that aren't really important enough to talk about, but that are necessary and usually time consuming.
I did end up rescheduling that appointment for like halfway through June to give myself more time to work on exposure therapy. I've been doing incredibly well so far--even getting in the car and going around the block--but I just wanted some more time to work on it. Plus I wanted to wait until we were farther away from flu season, since I never ended up getting a flu shot. And I wanted to make sure that the motivation I have right now that's helping me commit to doing the exposure therapy will continue until I really make lasting progress. I was a little afraid that if I got past the appointment, which, while not the only essential appointment I need to go to, was the only one that was imperative that I do it soon, my motivation would leave me and I would stop doing the exposure therapy like I have in the past.
Onto things that are going this month.
I'm currently helping my family prep for a garage sale next weekend. We have way too much stuff and we haven't done a garage sale in years (they're usually disappointing), so there's quite a bit of stuff to do.
I'm obviously continuing to work on exposure therapy. I'm scheduled to start doing longer and farther car rides on Tuesday, which I'm a little nervous about, but I know that its very important and necessary. After I am able to be far enough away from the house to go places, then I'm moving onto actually going into stores and stuff, which will be very difficult for me for a number of reasons, but again, very important and necessary.
I'm working on trying to build up a stock of crochet things to sell so that I can open an etsy store sometime soon. I WANT to open it by like the first of June, but that's unlikely to happen without me really rushing myself more than I want to, so it probably won't happen until toward the end of June at least.
I'm trying to finish revising the trigger warning lists for my ex-high school. I have like 2 1/2 left to revise and I'm hoping that I'll have them done before their school year ends in the beginning of June.
I'm hoping to take a class over the summer so that I can prepare myself for starting a degree program--hopefully in the fall.
And, perhaps above all, I'm going to work on learning how to balance my life. I have a lot of things that I'm undertaking right now, a tendency toward perfectionism, and a giant predisposition for focusing on one thing and totally ignoring everything else, even when everything else is just as important as the thing that I'm focusing on. So yeah, I need to prove to myself that I can properly balance my life without focusing on one thing too much or burning myself out by trying to complete too much at once before I do several of the important things that I'm working toward. Such as opening the etsy store or starting college.
I think that's about it for my update for the month. A lot of this information is probably new to my twitter followers, since I've been on a semi-hiatus for like 2 months and as such, haven't been sharing as much about my life as I usually do.
Anyways, I hope that everyone else's May goes well.
Love always,
Sam
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